Worst night.

Damn, my right hand is so painful I can't sleep the whole night. It's not as in shown in movies, where the actor punch onto a piece of glass panel n his knuckles and max he is only having scratches. The doctor say I am lucky as the glass had not cut my fingers tendons. Any deeper my fingers could be gone. But the piece of skin that was dangling could drop off.

The whole clean up process is so painful, 1st the doctor has to clean away my dry blood using the medicated lotion, it sure feels like 100 of bees stinging me. Next come the most painful part, he lift up my skin using a princer and starts probing into the wound with it to look for any foreign object (glass) that may still be in it. All the time the blood flows like a river. After a good 1 min, the doctor was satisfied that there isn't any glass left in my wound. After which, he starts to apply a pressure bandage on my wound to stop the bleeding. It could be remove the next morning and I have to apply a new dressing over it myself. All in all the whole doctor's fees was a whopping $76.00. I should have went to mediacl school myself. LOL

I woke up in the middle of the night and the pain is so unbearable. I am 1 who will admit that I could endure a lot of pain. Problem is there are 2 parts of my body feeling the pain, on my right hand and in my heart. The 1st is still bearable, no doubt I cannot clunch my fist. It is nothing compare to my heart. I think there's no more light at the end of the tunnel now. Sometimes, as humans we love to be able to spend our whole life with someone that we like, but due to some reasons it is not possible no matter how hard we tried. Its better not to go against it, if not at the end, it will be painful for both parties.

My heart has bled to death, nothing can revive it now. I know what to do next thou I may not wish to do it but it is a must for me to do.

A new cleaning assistant

Tested out this Scotch-Brite Micro Fibre Mop from 3M this morning. Its much easier to use then those paper types. It cleans easier and picks up dust and hair strands with much ease. Haha never realise that the floor was so dirty. It's worth the $29.xx that I have paid. I would really recommend it for quick clean ups.

Did lots of washing of dishes as well that was piled up for the past few days by Audrey. She still does not know what kind of home I want. Haiz guess she will not know how does a home should be. On one hand I am trying to clean up the mess, on the other she is creating more on purpose. That shows what kind of home environment she wants. Guess I have more mess to clean up in this few days.

Is there still light??

Finally the last straw is here, I was locked out of the house. Reason, Audrey suspected I was meeting a woman or my friends. Goodness, I was just going downstairs to buy some stuff from Shop and Safe. There are ants at home, I need to get some ant baits. Those irritating insects are happily crawling around the kitchen top.

I need to buy a magic mob as well, the floors at home is getting dusty, also its having a promo, buy 1 and get a magic duster free. While I was getting the stuff I need to buy, I received a sms on my mobile. Guess what, Audrey message me, I don't have to go back cos she had pad-locked the gate. I can take it if she had send me nasty sms, but locking the gate was the last thing I could ever accept. Come on, even if I was meeting my friends for dinner or coffee, there's nothing wrong with it. She's really controlling every aspect of my life now. I really need breathing space.

Whatever it is, I really starting to have doubts about this marriage. I need a wife who cares about my feelings, give me the warm of a home. Not this! On other hand, I really have love her with my whole heart, how could she suspect me. Now I really have to think about it, is there still light for both of us or we should just let go.

Ponders

OMG!!!!! What is going on??? Are we going into another round of cold war?

I am not angry with Audrey for not allowing me to come back today to play the game. Instead, I am not happy with her not telling me whether she is busy or not. I am ok if she's busy and need to attend to the work in office. At least, let me know right and not letting me guess and wait at the side. I had told Audrey, if she's busy, we don't have to go back early.

Ya, know what I saw, she is busy. YES, "BUSY" in msn-ing, those friends of her's. Come on, I am invisble??? I am sitting there waiting and looking at YOU! Eventually I could stand it anymore and I ask, "You're still busy???" Oh right and that was already 5.30pm. It took YOU, to take notice of me after more than 30 mins. Thank you.

No doubt, you asked me whether do we want to go off now. But whats the point? I was there waiting and waiting and waiting. I am ok with YOU for not allow me to play the game. But please take notice of me and let me know.

Oh I forgot, you need to reply to "Stew Pork, Scobbydaddy, etc" Whatever, I am not interested, you have your rights to talk to whoever YOU want. From now on I will do what I want. Cos to me, only you have the rights and I don't have. Go ahead turn the tables around and be angry, as if I don't have a temper.

Goodness, I would be in living hell again, from YOU!!!!!!!

A Late Late Post

Been so long since I last blog.

Update since my last entry, I am so happy, me and my wife have resolved our coldwar. Hopefully, it would not ever ever happens again. Arguments between couples are not un-usaul, but it should never comes to a point where actions and words starts to hurt each other. We have promised each other to be open to discussions whenever we're unhappy with each other actions. Remember, COMMUNICATION is the key to all happy marriages. xD

So much has happens for the last few weeks. Happy and sad events that passes by.

The one that affects me most is our precious princess has left us forever. Her sudden passaway was quite a surprise. Thou, she had seen a vet the night before and was diagnoise as having a heart problem, we have never expected her to pass away the next morning. I will always remember the joy and laughter that she has brought to us. Rest in peace, Lassie.

Me and my Dearest Woman in my Life

This is my 1st blog, and I am dedicating to the dearest woman in my life, my best friend, my buddy, my playmate who is my wife.

I know I may have hurt you with my words and actions. I am very sorry for all that.

Last Saturday, we started a cold war. Frankly I don't like cold wars, its like a virus which would normally break into something more serious. Its eating into our precious time which, we would be doing things together.

I am not good with words, but I would like my wife to know, no matter what has happens, you're still the 1 and only woman that I love with all my heart and like to be with till our hair become white, holding your hands in mine and giving you tight hugs and sweet kisses.

To my dear wife - I am sorry. I really love you, and I don't want to lose you. You part of my life which I could not do without. Lets us work together to overcome any challenges lies ahead of us.